I'm an Addict

I have been thinking about starting a blog for a long time, I just never got around to it. The truth is that I have been busy, but the other truth is that I am not sure if I like blogs in general because they remind me of facebook and instagram, and other social media sites, and I don’t like social media that much. Maybe it’s because I am an old fuddy duddy, but maybe it’s because I can’t handle reading about other people’s life without comparing it to my own and I don’t like the comparison that I come up with. 

I realize it’s my problem, but there is a saying that our insides never matched what we saw on the outsides of others, and I think social media is a perfect example of the outsides of others. I am sure that I am not the first to decry the fact that people don’t post the whole picture on facebook. It wouldn’t make sense to do so. No one wants to know the bad stuff.  But here I am at night in my room trying to type so that I can sleep better and I think I’d rather tell the whole story.

I don’t like social media because I still can’t handle it. I can’t handle the internet. There’s too much porn on it, and I struggle with the desire to look at it. I find that facebook for me ends up being a link to pictures of people that I find attractive, and I can’t handle it. It makes me want to look at more.

I met an alcoholic who said that if his brain were a computer it would only have 2 buttons, “now” and “more”. I can relate. So in an effort to beat insomnia I am going to share the whole story on this blog. It is probably a bad idea.